The beautiful baby boy we have visited the last few days was gone. We went into his room and realized he was gone, so we went on to a different floor to ask if there were other kids without mothers. The nurse smiled at us and told us she had one. She opened the door and told us the little girl’s name.
We walked into the room to see a girl – legs and arms poking out of the crib laying on her side facing the wall. I saw a diaper on her – but figured based on her size, she was probably about 8 or so. I thought she was asleep, but when we walked up to her crib, all of the sudden she flipped over and I was staring into big blue eyes and long eyelashes. She was severely handicapped. I realized she was actually about 13 or 14, but she was just a lot smaller than usual. She probably had minor epilepsy because she was shaking and jerking most of the time. She would shake her head back and forth, and grind her teeth really loud. I brought out a toy for her to hold, but quickly realized that she wasn’t responsive to something like a toy. Kala and I sat next to her in the crib and just held her for 2 and a half hours.. She was absolutely beautiful. She couldn’t talk at all, I could tell she could sense that we were there. Sometimes she would stop shaking and just look at us.
As we sat there, I couldn’t help but feel her spirit and know that she was one of God’s most precious children. I have not felt anything as strong as I did at this moment with Camilla. I can’t explain the emotion that I felt – an overwhelming gratitude that I could be trusted enough to be in her presence and to love her. It was as if I could see her not as myself – not through my own eyes – but as Heavenly Father sees her. Definitely an amazing experience.
“And I am filled with charity, which is everlasting love; wherefore, all children are alike unto me; wherefore I love little children with a perfect love; and they are all alike and partakers of salvation.” – Moroni 8:17
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